Is it possible to underestimate the pain? Yes. Mike was sick for a long time, and each time we were in the hospital, the possible nightmare played in my head. But when it happens, you get hit like a ton of bricks. No, you're never ready. And no, the pain never subsides. In time, it gets a little easier to manage, but it's still there. When will my healing be done? It's a question I've asked myself a lot. Maybe never. I loved him too much I guess. But that's okay. As long as I can wake up everyday, eat everyday, take care of my kids, and go to work, I'll make some progress. In time.